In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back. — Charlie Brown

Hello to all of my non-readers (does anyone still come here?).  Anyway, I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything but it’s been a while since I’ve wanted to say anything about anything.  I’ve read some articles over the past few months that get my blood boiling and I consider writing something about it but then it’s like, what can I say that everybody else hasn’t already said?  And besides it felt like it took a lot of energy to put my thoughts down and, I don’t know, I just didn’t feel like posting anything that would cause an argument or debate because then that would mean that I needed to respond and I didn’t feel like I could.  I gave up before there was any fight, that’s all.  And I didn’t want to write about what I was feeling because I was working very hard to try and ignore it (hey guess what, that doesn’t actually work…at all!).  Needless to say it’s been a rough year.  It’s been a year and two-and-a-half months since I had a job (*sigh* and here I thought having a college degree would help…stupid economy) and I’ve been living with my parents, not a bad thing in and of itself but add that to all the other stresses (you know, no job, no money, continual rejection after interviews, getting my hopes up only to keep getting crushed, and having my cat get injured twice, along with a not-working-quite-the-right-way Jeep and a broken computer, add to that having about 98% of my belongings in boxes out in the barn and my brother unreachable for most of the year (thank you Navy!) and that should give you a rough idea of my year) and it’s been…well, a nightmare.  Granted it could’ve been worse, I could’ve gotten sick (only one little cold at the beginning of the year and that’s been it, miraculous considering my penchant for getting sick, thank you God), I could still be out of a job, I could’ve been bored silly and reduced to talking to the dogs and my cat like they were people…oh wait…er…never mind…. ;) , uh…my parents could’ve kicked me out (I’m lucky they didn’t, I haven’t exactly been great to be around what with the depression and anger and all), the roof of the house could’ve caved in…my car could’ve gotten stolen…oh hell, any number of things could’ve happened that would have made this year even more terrible, that’s not the point.  The point is…the point is…it hasn’t been a cakewalk, but I’m still here and, bonus, I have retained a sense of humor.  Oh yeah, and I finally have a job, yaaay for the holiday season retail store hiring spree!  Everybody now, Hip-Hip-HOORAY, Hip-Hip-HOORAY, Hip-Hip-HOORAY!!!

And I leave you with a song, hope it gets stuck in your head.

P.S. only 36 days until Christmas!!  Not that I’m excited about it or anything  :D

Turkey Day!!!!

So today is the day where you are supposed to give thanks for the things in your life.  I have a lot to be thankful for family, friends (just so you know all of you who read my blog regularly, Michelle, Ric, Noreaster and the rest of you guys are counted among my family and friends), my job (though I don’t have to be thankful for Black Friday), school, my professors, a reliable car, the cat I’m getting either Friday or Monday, the intelligence I’ve been gifted with, the love and humor I’m surrounded by and the wonderful apartment I inhabit.  But this year the thing I’m grateful for the most is God’s grace.  Because you see my brother isn’t here today and he won’t be here for Christmas, New Year’s, my dad’s b-day or my b-day and he wasn’t here for my mom’s b-day.  He’s serving in the Navy on a submarine that is out on a six-month mission.  So I don’t get to see him for a long time.  And it hurts.  And I’ve been struggling.  And I know that during Christmas it’s going to be hard to be happy but I also know that I have to try.  And I know that I’m going to be asking for God to give me a lot of strength and that is why I’m thankful that God is gracious and loving and patient and understanding of what I’m dealing with and for that I am most thankful.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone hope your day is marvelous.

G   :)